The first weekend Blake came home was the biggest emotional rollercoaster yet! He was coming home on the Saturday (5th May) but that day was also Family Day so we could go and look round the base etc before we bought him back with us! We drove up on the Friday night and stayed in a Premier Inn somewhere Up North because it’s about a 4 hour drive from here to Catterick and I didn’t fancy that at 5:30 in the morning. Due to these travelling plans, I went round to Blakes house straight from work on the Friday evening and met his Mum and Dad for the first time in about 6 weeks. Very scary but also exciting. My biggest fear was “what the hell am I going to talk to his parents about for 4 hours in the car”. I know it sounds silly but to be honest I don’t think i could properly concentrate on Blake coming home so I had to preoccupy my mind with other trivial crap. I think it may be because I had trained myself not to concentrate on him coming home, so as not to count down the days to much (This makes it seem so much longer).
When we got to Catterick I felt so ill, literally the nerves were unbearable and I needed some fresh air. We pulled into the car park and I had to try so hard to calm myself down – I was so excited but also nervous. Well a couple of hours later I felt so stupid!! We were all seated in a large hall to wait for our loved ones to come and meet us. Then, there he was. I think I stopped breathing for at least a minute. He marched over to us with a massive smile on his face and then it came, the bigeest, tightest hug ever. That’s all I had wanted over the past 5 weeks and now I had it, my boyfriend holding me close and making me feel safer and warmer than I ever had. When he whispered “I love you” in my ear that was it I just burst into tears. Don’t ask why, I’m a complete mess sometimes and I can’t help it. As far as I was concerned I had my boyfriend back and for 4 days nothing could take him away from me 😀